it isn't as easy as it seems

Yes.
I'm back blogging.
Happy? lols
Well..
Many things happened in this half a year since I've stopped blogging.

Oh well.
Basically, I'm now struggling with my studies.
Sometimes, really feel like giving up.
But when I think about it, what can I do if I give up?
Go into a private university? Hmm.
Cost is definitely a problem, and besides, my dream was to get into NTU and get a degree right?

EEE was not my first choice. I know that I have absolutely no interest, not to say talent, in this field.
Bioengineering was not my aim either.
But since I can't get into a pure science field I got to grab the closest alternative right?
Yeah. I really hoped to get into Bioengine and I didn't.
I thought, why not try EEE out? Besides, in the final year, I still have a choice of choosing Medical field as my elective.
Yes. And now I can't even get past the first semester.
Oh wow.

Well, it seems like I'm not the only one having problems.
Seems like my friends around me have problems coping with the pace of university life.
One of them even dropped out.
That had sort of a big impact on me.
I feel like giving up too.
I keep thinking I can always get into a private uni, or work while appealing.
Seems like I'm running away from the problem. Ha.
It never occured to me university life will be this tough.
But I do want to get a degree.
I don't know what to do right now.
I know I won't do well this semester and I'm uncertain about the future semesters as well.
So, how? Damn.

This will be a challenge in life that I've to get through.
I have no idea what the future holds for me.
And i also have no idea what is the next step that I should take.
Maybe I shall think about after the exams.
No point thinking about it now, making me so depressed and feeling so stupid.

Oh well, just a random ranting post about my depressing life right now. Ciaoz then.

[ It isn't as easy as it seems. ]